Relatives….

Why are relatives so tough to deal with? I mean, what’s the deal with them.  I am a person who gives immense importance to human relations.  I have always placed relationships before me.   But, I have learnt a lesson the hard way.  Never give anyone more importance than required.  I will have to work towards it because, I have been one person (and I am who I am because of my parents and the values instilled in me by them) for 25 years and it’s tough for me to change my personality.  What I don’t understand is how can people change themselves so much that they are one person this moment and totally a different person the very next moment. 

My parents have taught us (my younger sister and me) to only give and not to ask. They taught us to be good to everyone.  I have never seen them asking help from anyone.  I have seen them struggle to be where we are now.   It was never a cake-walk.  I have seen them help when we had less.  I have seen them taking care of their siblings and their siblings kids.  And now, it’s these cousin’s attitude that I have started to detest. 

One thing I don’t get is how can a person ever remain immune to whatever that is happening and just act as if everything’s fine.  Is it a problem with them or is it a problem with me?  I think it’s how I perceive things.  I think for everyone whereas I should limit my thoughts around my parents, my in-laws, my husband and my sister.  Why do I find it so tough to draw a line in relationships?  I mean my conscience pinches me.  It says, “what you are thinking of doing is wrong”. 

The sooner I come to terms with realty the better.

 

Words

Why is life full of uncertainties? I am developing a phobia for words. Words, they can make your life happy or make your life restless. I don’t know why every word I speak is misunderstood. I have changed myself so much and it is called a favor. I did not there were favors in a marriage, or in fact any relationship. I am scared of speaking my mind now. I am suppressing everything within me. I am becoming violent on myself. Some times I become so helpless I want to hurt myself to relieve myself of all the pain. I don’t know what to do. I am under immense pressure. If I cry it’s wrong. If I speak my mind it’s wrong. If I want him to talk something it’s wrong. I have no great expectations from life. I just want to be happy in my own world and is it wrong?

Sree Rama Navami

Well.. Finally, I have my own blog (was planning it for a long time but, implemented it just yesterday on the day of sree rama navami). 

Rama navami, the birth of Sree Rama who is the seventh incarnation of Sree Maha Vishnu, is celebrated during Chaitra masam (March – April) on the ninth day of the first fortnight (Chaitra Masa  Suklapaksha  Navami).  This day also marks the end of nine-day utsavam called the Vasantotsavam (festival of spring) which starts with Ugadi,celebrated on Chaitra Shudhdha Padyami.  Sree Rama was born in Ayodhya to King Dasarath and Kausalya to re-establish dharma on earth by destroying the demon Ravan.  He was married to Sita, daughter of King Janaka who ruled Mithila.

On this day, people pray Sita, Lakshma (Rama’s brother who went on exile along with him) and Hanuman ji (ardent devotee) along with Sree Rama. 

It is widely believed that listening to Ramayana (story of Rama written by Maharishi Valmiki) cleanses the soul and chanting his name is the path to salvation and attain moksha. 

  Om Sree Rama Rama Rameti Rame Rame Manorame Sahasra Naama Tattulyam Rama Nama Varanane!!!